Ang dami kong gustong gawin pero…

Ugh.

Nakakainis. Di ko naman alam kung san ako magsisimula.

There are times that I wanna have a RP blog (about Persona 3 or Persona 4). But that feeling is just in my mind; I never get to do it with actions. When I’m really decided that I’m gonna make one, there’s this instinct of mine that says that I’ll be lazy doing it or that at first, I’m so hyped about it and really do stuff but eventually, I’ll get lazy and that I’ll just left the blog hanging out there (in the Philippines, it is ningas-cogon). Although there are some people who support me at this, it feels like it’s not enough. There’s a part of me that worries; like, what if I ran out of ideas or something. In the end, I didn’t made the blog and I’m back again in my own long-time blog. Contented, in some way.

I should be studying how to do HTML stuff (for my theme) but I got lazy. Hehe. I just miss Tumblr so much (eventhough it’s just almost 2 days that I’m gone here). And there’s some other sites that I want to go, my almost-endless different accounts on different sites that I should fix. And then, there’s this amazing site about colors, palettes, patterns and stuff that I got hooked just a couple of hours ago. The site is COLOURlovers and it’s a bit hard for me to get out of there. And there’s SAO that I recently watched and I really want to finish the whole season right now. But if I do that, I won’t be going online coz I’m gonna spend my time on TV and I will make myself sad because it’s over, and I will get bored again and etc. 

Ugh. SO. MANY. TEMPTATIONS. 

Why are there so many distractions in this world? 

Help?

I will now make a theme. I really don’t know how to do this and I don’t have any idea on how to make it. That’s why I searched on how to make one and luckily, I found one! The tutorial isn’t that complicated and I do hope that I would fully understand it.

I might be off on your dashboard for awhile coz the Tumblr sites that I will visit in the coming hours (and days) are the tutorials for making a theme.

I really wish that this will turn out good. :)

I have a clear and detailed idea what I want my blog looks like. The problem is how will I do it. I don’t know what will I do with the codes and related stuff ‘cause I don’t even understand it. I tried searching for themes but there’s nothing that resembles what I want. 

Ugh. This is the reason why I hate changing my blog. Maybe I’ll try how to make themes so I can make one for me.

Ayun. May part 2 dun sa pag-uusap namin ni Papa tungkol sa pagbili ng sapatos. Andito yung part 1. Hehe. 

Nagchat ulit kami ni Papa sa Facebook dahil hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang gusto ko. Pinicture-an din niya yung mga nakita niya.

As usual, hindi pa agad ako nakapili. May dalawa akong choices pero syempre, alangan namang bilhin yung dalawang yun. Hehe. Kaya pumunta muna si Papa sa Havaianas (tama ba ang spelling?) para bumili ng tsinelas. 

Grabe, pati tsinelas, wala akong mapiling maganda.Lahat daw kami bibilhan ni Papa tutal 60 Riyals lang. Ang katumbas nun ay 600 pesos! Grabe, ang mahal. Pwede nang bumili ng damit. Pero nakabili pa rin si Papa ng tsinelas:

Yung akin dyan ay  yung sandal na pink. Ayoko nga eh. Ayoko ng sandal. Hindi  ko siya mapapang-araw-araw. Pero mukhang no choice na eh. Hehe. 

Back to Converse. Napili ko na ang gusto ko. 

Yung black na meron sa likod ang napili ko. Gusto ko din yung nasa left niya na may nakalagay na 1908 something pero yung isa pa rin yung  napili ko. Kaso may problema, walang size 8 yun. Size 10 lang daw. Kainis. Ang ganda pa naman kasi colorful sa likod. Astig. Ang cool. Hehe.

Hayy. Bahala na. Hehe.

Nagpapabili ako ng sapatos kay Papa at eto yung mga designs na nakita niya. Masyadong plain yung mga tinda nilang sapatos. Tatlo lang dun ang gusto ko. Actually, nagustuhan ko yung mga yun kasi yun yung nasa choices eh. Eto yung mga choices na andun sa mall:

At eto naman yung 3 pinili ko:

 (sabi ni papa, abstract daw yung nakalagay dun)

Maganda naman pero sabi ko nga kanina, ang layo nun sa mga nakita ko dito sa Pilipinas at sa mga nasearch ko sa internet. Eto naman yung mga expected ko na meron dun kahit hindi lahat meron dun. Ang gulo no? Hahahaha

Etong last picture ang pinakagusto ko sa lahat. Meron ganto dito sa ‘Pinas eh. Mga 2k+ pero hindi naman lalampas sa 3k.

Ang layo dun sa ibang bansa no? Sayang.

Nakakatuwa naman. Tapos ko ng ipasa ang mga requirements ko. Nakapagspecial exam na ko sa Rizal. At kahit malakas ang kutob ko na bagsak ang final exam ko sa Physics at Integral Calculus, okay lang. Ginagawa ko na ang dapat gawin. Hindi ko man naibigay ang lahat ng kaya ko sa lahat ng mga subjects ko ngayong sem, okay lang din. Handang-handa na ko sa magiging resulta ng isang sem kong pagod. Hehe. Ang importante, tapos na. Wala na kong iisipin pa at bukas na ang bakasyon ko! Hihintayin ko na lang yung grades ko sa website namin, ang start ng enrollment at ang pagdating ni Papa. :)

Thank you, Lord God. :)

Rizal Class

My heart’s beating fast. I can feel the wind breeze in my cheek. I am a bit tired. It’s a tiring work for me every time I go to the Library in the 5th floor of the next building and go back to 4th floor of the other building. I have a quiz on the next subject. How lucky of me. I am done reporting. Since there’s someone reporting in the front and it seems that they are just talking to the professor, I decided to open my notebook and review my notes. I was halfway there when I felt something. It seems that someone’s touching some strands of my hair, in a weird way. I felt uneasy. But then again, I ignored my instincts. I said to myself that maybe, I was just imagining, that I need to have the right amount of sleep because I’m a bit stressed.

I can’t help it. I looked back and I was right. Someone’s touching it, feeling it. I’m a little surprised. My friend/classmate is the one who’s doing it. For me, it’s a bit weird for him to do it. We’re not that close and I don’t think of any reason why would he do it. But, maybe because I touched his hair a few hours ago as I was commenting about it. Or maybe he’s interested of the colors of my hair. Yes, colors. My hair consists of different colors: black, silver, gray, white, dark orange, red and brownish something. I colored my hair a few months ago but that was blue black. I stopped myself from imagining these things. I told him that I was right to myself that someone’s touching my hair. He smiled, without saying a word. 

I stopped doing it the moment I looked back. So, I resumed to what I was doing, reviewing my notes. After several minutes, I got bored so I decided to listen to the reporters. As I was listening, there’s that feeling again. I assumed that it was him again and I didn’t looked back. It was a bit weird but I suddenly remembered that he’s not the only one who did it to me. There are close friends of mine who do it. I continued listening. The feeling lasted for more than 5 minutes. Weird. I thought he’ll just touch and look at it and leave it. 

The feeling’s gone. My instincts tell me that it was not a big deal even though he confessed that he had a crush on me. My brain follows it and focuses on the incoming quiz.

Ugh. My eyes are sleepy. I want to but I can’t. There are things that I need to work on. There’s the play, the never-ending-clip-making or shoots, long projects and of course, the subjects where I need to improve my class standing in most of them, especially in Physics and Integral Calculus.

It’s been a harsh day. I thought, this day will turn out good. We don’t have any assignments and yes, there’s a quiz but it’s not that I need to really focus on it. But things turned around. Our PE professor told us that we will have a draw lot next meeting for us to know the members of our team in our basketball game, which is our final exam and project. I’m a bit shocked when I heard it. I thought we’re the ones who will choose our own team members. My friends and I are really expecting that, too expecting that we really practice our shooting skills during the subject (when our professor tells us that it’s okay) and we’re still finding what place where we’ll practice playing basketball. We’re not really good (especially me and up until now, I don’t know how to steal the ball) that we are a bit conscious what will be our grade in PE.

In Physics (next class), we only checked the papers but our professor showed to us our midterm grades. From 82, it’s just 75 now. Kinda shocking. I didn’t know that my failure on the midterm exam will greatly (super great) affect the grade. But then, no one passed the midterm exam so I bet our grades were lower than before.

And in Integral Calculus, ugh! Yes, we have a short quiz but I’m not that worried about it. What worries me most is the midterm grade. My previous grade is 87 (a bit high hehe) and now, it’s 83! What the! The results of my activities were very good and when I computed my grade, it’s not really 83. It’s still 87! That freaking teacher. Does she know how to compute grades? Did she really know how and when to multiply and divide? Does she knows that all engineering students get smarter when it comes to computing and checking their grades? All she does is to divide it, multiply less and divide more. It isn’t fair. It’s corruption. She’s badly manipulating our grades. There are many scholars in the class and knowing that they have a low grade makes them worry. She didn’t compute it correctly and whole class is really mad. Ugh.

I feel like having a breakdown now. The events happened is a bit stressing for me. I’m already stressed and what happened today adds up. Ugh. I hate it.